Friday, November 10, 2006

Echoes


My house is full of echoes. As I pour out the remaining splashes of wine from the glasses, gather up the cups of tea and water and begin to wash away the traces of our weekend, I feel myself tear up with the emotion of missing the seven amazing women that were gathered around me here. Then I begin to hear the echoes, your voices telling stories and filled with laughter. Just as you have each taken a piece of me with you, so have you left a part of yourselves here with me.

We spent 72 hours together in the hall of mirrors, 7 individuals reflecting ourselves back to each other in the candlelight.

Liz, thank you for your beautiful chanting it lifted us up and set the stage for our journey. You were very generous with your talents and gentle with your guidance.

Thea, your smiles were so plentiful, warm and a beautiful invitation to curl up in your arms. I felt like I had known you forever and was safe breaking open against your strength. You were an amazing catalyst for us all. You encouraged us to spill, reminding us we are safe, and letting us each know that you loved us. You are amazing.

Michelle, watching you open up and share your true self was a thing of beauty. You have such depths and strength behind that quiet exterior. It was a priceless gift that you gave by sharing “her” with us. Magic! I wish we had more time together and I am all ready trying to think of a way to spend more time with you. You are inspirational my dear, never doubt your power.

Den, my darling friend, it was amazing to be able to spend so much time with you again. There were times as I looked at you I would think of that little girl I met so long ago. It was a joy to see how much she has grown, how much you have come into yourself and bloomed into fullness. I am in awe of your heart dear one. You are filled with such love and empathy. I know you are part angel. I am so lucky to have you walking beside me on this journey. I will love you my whole life.

Susannah meeting you is like finding a missing piece of myself. You have helped me to feel more whole again my dear and I am forever in your debt. You are so elegant and talented, and at first I was a little intimidated by your many gifts until I saw your tender heart, your loving hugs, your comforting words and your own pain. I am excited to be able to watch from such a close proximity as you take your place on stage! Great things lie in wait my dear, soon, I feel them making their way to the surface.

Meg, you are like my favorite teddy bear. I just want to cuddle you, look at your sweet face and know that somehow everything is just a little better because you are here. I am so grateful for all the ways you share your heart, the little touches when I needed them, the big hugs, the laughter and the words I needed. I love you madly!

The walls of my home seem to vibrate with the energy that was shared here; it has seeped into them as it has into me. Our time together has left its mark and had its alchemical effects. I love you all and miss you with my whole heart.

7 Comments:

Blogger Bohemian Girl said...

mmmm...you wrote so eloquently so many emotions i feel.

i've been imagining you picking up our pieces, our traces and wondering what images, feelings, emotions you were left with in your now quiet home.

i cannot thank you enough for opening your gorgeous home to all of us with such abandon. then letting go of the stress of being the hostess and joining us, linking arms, hugs, laughter, tears...all of it. you amaze me dearheart how you balanced it all. we are all so forever grateful that you planted this seed, watered it and we all were there to see the luscious fruit of our connections.

i've known you since 5th grade. i feel so honored to have shared our life journey together. i loved seeing you connect with everyone so deeply. now i feel like we are family.

you are a beautiful deep sea of treasures, my friend. i love swimming in you and seeing what i can find. it's always beautiful.

i love you.

xoxox

11:15 AM  
Anonymous ceanandjen said...

Your description of echos brings this right down into my soul. Your heart is so big, and you opened your home to your wonderful and loving friends. I am ever so happy that this time together was even more than any of us can understand. It is inspirational and it is sweetly chilling.

Thank you for sharing your version of the journey with us.

xoxoxoxo

2:53 PM  
Blogger Georgia said...

Beautiful!

4:32 PM  
Blogger Susannah said...

oh little bunny, it was like spending time with my own reflection, spending time with you. i am in awe of *your* talent, sweetheart, you are an incredible painter, and the most genreous soul i know. your home is gorgeous, and this reflects *you*. it was an honour to meet your family too (i'm totally in love with Dace :-)... i can't wait until you are in my little flat in London and we are getting ready for a night on the town... thank you for knowing my heart, and for understanding... i love you, sister xoxox

5:48 PM  
Blogger Goddess of Leonie said...

when women awake ~~~
this whole world trembles and soars...

my goddess, aren't we each all what each other needs?

10:01 PM  
Blogger Colorsonmymind said...

My heart ached as I read and imagined you moving through your home picking up the physical remnants of our being together.

I was so sad to leave you.

When you first opened your door, and I hugged you, it was like I knew you to the core.

Your inner strength is mind blowing and beautiful.

All the moments I got to share with you have imprinted themselves on my soul.

Your kitchen is such an extention of you-it's loftyness, it's warmth and clarity-the brightness and nurturing colors. Somehow it felt like you were able to join all of us while still allowing all of our needs to be met. I can't imagine the struggle you must have felt, being pulled from conversations and experiences to tend to the mundane things that were necessary to make us all feel so at home.

I loved your studio and seeing your art up close and in person. Your ability to capture every detail in a way no photograph could ever manage. The life you bring to the canvas or wood is hauntingly real.

I loved sitting next to you while we worked on our books. Watching your careful applications, the way your fingers moved the pages, placed things just were you wanted them. Your creating, an art unto itself. Thank you for the short lesson in drawing. I can't express how much I want to be able to spend days with you in the studio-soaking in all your wisdom.

I find that I am pulled to adding cumin to everything, pulling indian dishes from the frozen food sections, just to have the aromatic reminder of your delicious cooking, your loving mothering.

I miss your smile, waking to see the gentle steady rise and fall of your shoulders while you lay sleeping, your quiet sleepy face-once again with that smile.

You and Denise have taught me so much about protecting myself while also being open. The two of you combine as teachers for me, in a way that is unexplainable.

All I can say is thank you. Thank you for sharing you with me. I am so thrilled to have you in my life as my friend and as my soul sister.

I love you

6:17 AM  
Blogger la vie en rose said...

wow girlfriend! this was just beautiful. thank you for your words to me. i will hold them close and trust them with my life.

...yes, we all must see each other again...soon...

11:37 AM  

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