Tuesday, March 07, 2006

Self portrait Tuesday

If you expect someone to give you a degree in fine art (especially with a focus in painting and drawing), somewhere along the way they will expect you to do a self -portrait. It is a required part of your training. I was horrified by this idea and assignment in all its forms. Always painful for me and they were never any good! Who really wants to be forced to look at and analyze yourself for hours during the painting process and then be forced to discuss it for hours during critique?

Consequently, I have not done a self -portrait since I was FORCED to, until now.

As I mentioned in my first posting, this has been a rough year. When you go through something as major as the loss of a parent, it shatters you. Well, that is how it has been for me at any rate. I felt ripped into pieces and hyper aware of the fragmentation. I began to really look at all the separate pieces of my life and self. It was time to think about what was and is working, what isn't, what needs to be let go and what needs developing. I, in short, had to put myself back together.

These paintings are a part of that healing process and an expression of it. I am preparing for a show in August and it is entirely comprised of self-portraits. Gulp. As they are a physical manifestation of my own emotional and spiritual journey, I felt I HAD to be the model. Another lesson to embrace, self-acceptance.

These three paintings are part of a larger piece that will be made up of 13 canvases hung together on a wall. I thought that they would be a good piece to use for the "time" SPT. The sizes of the canvases are all based on the Fibonacci sequence, otherwise referred to as the Golden Mean or the Divine Proportion. I felt that was an appropriate infrastructure for the concept of these works. They will be hung in a spiral pattern on a large wall. I hope you enjoy them.


Blogger M said...

Gorgeous paintings! Wish I could see them up close and personal instead of on my tiny computer screen. Welcome to the blogging world!! Found you through Denise's site, one I visit regularly. I just started doing this as well, so can totally relate to being a bit nervous about putting the words out there. I've only been doing it for a few weeks but I love it!! Keep it coming!

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Blogger megg said...

hello there!!

welcome to this blogging world. I have to warn you, it will change your life! I've been doing it for a couple of months and I can't believe I wasn't doing it before. It's been remarkable! I really enjoyed reading your first posts. It sounds like you have been through a lot. I think you are so brave to start this and begin to find out who you truly are. I look forward to reading more!!

2:52 AM  
Blogger gkgirl said...

welcome to the world of blogging...
i found you through bohemian girl
whom i adore...

your artwork is truly

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Anonymous amy said...

these are stunning, I especially like the perspective on the legs portrait. what a brave series of paintings to be undertaking!

11:00 AM  
Blogger la vie en rose said...

how brave and daring you are. your work is beautiful and i do hope each portrait helps in your healing process.

2:26 PM  
Blogger liz elayne said...

incredible. your artwork is gorgeous and brave and honest.
my heart reaches out to yours as i read these words about the loss of one of your parents. last year brought me my first experience with deep grief and your words of feeling shattered resonate deep within me. it is wonderful that you are healing through your painting. through creating.

3:15 PM  
Blogger yaya said...

They are amazing - I do not have talent such as yours but I am having a nude chachoal drawing of myself done for my husband for our anniversary. I have a great dislike for my body but since my Mum passed away in September, I feel I have to (?) - need to do this, as a gift to my husband, myself and my mothers spirit. Thank you for a great read, Yasmin in Australia

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